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[20 Jul 2003|03:41pm] |
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Oiproud2bepunk: what do you call 150 niggers at the bottom of the ocean ?
mygunx YOURFACEx: what?
Oiproud2bepunk: a good start
mygunx YOURFACEx: lol
mygunx YOURFACEx: horrible
Oiproud2bepunk: horribly FUNNY!
sad. very very sad. i hate racism as much as i hate my dad. plus my dads racist, shit, that's a lot of hate :D
ex's and FUCKING oh's
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[19 Jul 2003|03:05pm] |
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yeah well the show was ok. i went on a rampage of slapping/punching anneliese and jizzake. i gave in and became emo hahaha i was being gay and sad part of the time. i NEED to go to the show tonight and tomorrow. tonight for the obvious reasons. tomorrow.. umm.. cause.. it would just be entertaining & fun :D
ummmm... guys are so fucking confusing and i will never, EVER EVER EVER understand any of them. except for jason.
i give up, it's all up to you now.
bye.
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[18 Jul 2003|04:27pm] |
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copeland, noise ratchet, and the summer rocket is tonight.. man.. i better leave early to stock up on tissues for the emo fuckers.. bwhahahha.. ummm tonight's gonna be fun. yeah. pointless update. bye.
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| this is the greatest fall of all time... |
[17 Jul 2003|10:51pm] |
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the hand of my clock strikes two in times when I got the best of you, we made promises we couldn't keep, and every night we couldn't sleep.. i didn't know why, but didn't ask questions because it was the first time in my life, yeah the first time in my life where I did something right.. i set myself up for the greatest fall of all time.. you pick me apart while I search for witty things to say (in my defense) "you'll never amount to anything anyway" and think that i'm impressed with your one night stands and your contagious kiss, i'm tryin to get this right, yeah, cause i'm ridiculous like that, i'll keep this as a constant reminder of the nights I spent holding onto him and rest assured i'm moving on.. i miss you less, with each day you're gone...
that is the song to you know who..
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[17 Jul 2003|07:20pm] |
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i fucking hate you and your drugs. i fucking hate people that do them. FUCK YOU.
i fucking hate you and i hope you die
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[17 Jul 2003|02:13pm] |
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i want fairytail love.. like in the movies, that'd be too cool.
i'm going to copeland tomorrow with anneliese..iduno if jessica still is, and jake and his friend heather are going too, i want sean to go too. FUCKING! against me's saturday in ybor
:(
fucking.. i forgot what i was gonna write about. fuck it
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| the day I learn to fly , i'm never coming down |
[17 Jul 2003|02:28am] |
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well well well
long time no real update. i guess i shall update you on my so called life. be prepared for bullshit!!!
life is life i guess. it's pretty shitty and confusing but of course there are the good times. this summer has gone by sooooo fast.. most of it was consumed with chaise. god.. every second with him was so fucking perfect. i loved him with all my heart and soul and i'd die for him. sometimes i wish i would've never gotten in a relationship with him, yes the happiness and pleasure and just.. everything was so so SO great in everyway possible, but i can't deal with this pain anymore. my voice is cracking, i'm crying and shaking. i've never ever been this upset over a guy, ever. now, and when sean and i hated each other. i'm scared of guys and getting into relationships, they say to not be scared to let yourself fall inlove (i think mandy moore said that) but i am scared more than anything in this world. chaise told me he'd never leave me, and i believed it, and let myself fall for him. ask anybody.. nobody could break what we had (when we had it). we were the perfect couple. all my friends liked him, all his liked me (atleast they said they did). ok amber shut the fuck up already nobody wants to hear your fucking bullshit!!!!!!!!!!don't even read that or ill hunt you down and kill you. deal? deal. ok ok ok i'm ok now. shed some tears and talked to jason..always helps.
jason..dogg you're seriosuly the best person ever and i mean that more than anything. i love you to death and ONCE N AWHILE...just tell me to shut the fuck up, lol, i know you get sick of me complainig
jessica.. thanks for everything bizzotch.. listening to me complain about him and making me feel fucking better. fucking, you own..
leftovacrizak666 (3:03:15 AM): dude...you are cool as hell..and personally, I thought the kid was a complete stupidass
leftovacrizak666 (3:03:28 AM): you were too...normal for him
aww:)
fucking...whats going on about the copeland show?? whos going? and whos not?
mygunx YOURFACEx (3:08:39 AM): wat the fucks that charecter goofy suppost to be? a giraffe?
leftovacrizak666 (3:08:57 AM): goofy?
mygunx YOURFACEx (3:08:59 AM): yes
leftovacrizak666 (3:09:01 AM): a dog, I believe
mygunx YOURFACEx (3:09:08 AM): AH HA! thats it
leftovacrizak666 (3:09:14 AM): hahahaha
leftovacrizak666 (3:09:38 AM): was that destroying you?....not knowing that piece of useless, trivial information?
leftovacrizak666 (3:09:39 AM): lolol
mygunx YOURFACEx (3:09:55 AM): hahaha yes
mygunx YOURFACEx (3:09:56 AM): it was
mygunx YOURFACEx (3:10:11 AM): hes half giraffe half dogg
leftovacrizak666 (3:10:34 AM): lol...whoa...that must have been one tall dog
mygunx YOURFACEx (3:10:41 AM): of course
leftovacrizak666 (3:10:42 AM): back legs like a mothafucka
mygunx YOURFACEx (3:10:47 AM): hahahahaha
theres your answer jason. hahahaha
i can't even keep my mind on track, goodnight bitches EVEN THOUGH I CANT FUCKING SLEEP AND HAVE TO BE UP AT FUCKING 9AM!! goddamnitmotherfuckerpussyassbitch. fucking.. someone call me tomorrow. 347-9218 or 345-6432
xxx
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[16 Jul 2003|06:17pm] |
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how come it takes frank 853 hours to get to my house? bitch.. tonights gonna be fun :)
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[15 Jul 2003|11:36pm] |
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i was putting my hoodie on and my hand caught the zipper and it ripped my nail off. OUCH.
my life = DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA x's four. FUCKING... i am moving when i turn 18. i'm getting out of this shithole.
my dad and i got into it tonight. he went through my email and found a conversation between sean and i. and confronted me about everything.
i'm deleting this journal very shortly and making a new one. ill add everybody.
i love the few awesome friends i have. i'm not gonna name names..but you bizitches know you who are! :D thanks for the suppost and laughs and whatnot you've given me.. YOU GUYS ARE OFF THE FUCKIN HOOK!! :)
imgoingtobed
goodnight <3
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| you'll never again be a part of me |
[15 Jul 2003|01:36am] |
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this is what i have to say to you..
I was young and so naive
wearing my heart on my sleeve
and so I gave it to you
now left in pieces like broken jewels
you just up and left me here
for rot-gut gin and cheap beer
but I'm over crying and into fits
sad to see you go, you piece of shit
I have a wicked heart because of you
now hate is all that I can do
I have a wicked heart because of you
now hate is all I'll ever do
endless tears I cried for years
your endless bottoms of empty beers
smiling with your drink in hand
to think I once called you a "real man"
i was always 2nd best, but what could I do?
when you loved a bottle and I loved YOU
I have a wicked heart because of you
now hate is all that I can do
I have a wicked heart because of you
now hate is all I'll ever do
it makes me sick to think I cared
knowing you were never there
and you'll go on, what will you be?
never again a part of me
with empty hearts and open hands
you will hold your tainted stance
remember me when you fall apart
because you gave me this wicked heart
I have a wicked heart because of you
now hate is all that I can do
I have a wicked heart because of you
now hate is all I'll ever do
The Devotchaks say it best..
the end. goodbye
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| i want you to know that i miss you... |
[14 Jul 2003|12:26am] |
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i miss being held. and kissed. and told all those sweet things that pratically lift you up in the air and make everything okay. i hate being alone. i've never really not been alone. i've always had someone to be there for me.. i haven't talked or seen sean in a week. just talking to him or seeing him would make things better because he was the one who i told everything to and he wouldn't judge me about anything. he's gonna come home to this drama, and probably be highly upset with me:(. caitlin and i laughed like we used to :) i missed that. i havent been out in over a week and i need to get out. ive just been around being gay and sad. i was gonna go to parkside with jason and scott but it didn't work out. i was all happy and excited to see them cause i haden't seen them since the show. always a pleasure talking and hanging out with them. such sweethearts :). jake im'd me out of the blue and told me he liked me :/ he's awesome.. i just never thought of him like that. we're suppost to hangout tomorrow but the schools making me get a physical since i'm switching. and anneliese asked me to go with her zack and pete tomorrow. pete=oi boi..hehehe but iduno if im gonna go. iduno what the fucks wrong with me. i have no ambition to do anything anymore. chaise fucked me up..hhaha no..but that did make me feel worthless. oohh..jessica, let's have that bonfire, i need to burn that last piece that i'm still holding onto. haha..but foreal i really do. i'm gonna go to bed, or atlest try to.
they say that if somebody just pops in your head out of the blue, that their thinking about you.. i wonder if that's true? ::shruggs:: goodnight
christina..iloveyou:) im so sorry hun.. i know how it feels..we all do. things will get better.. like you said..time is everything. im here if you need me:)
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[13 Jul 2003|10:51pm] |
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KcSChiKa87 (10:44:05 PM): I guess what I like about you the best is how you can make me laugh even when nothing is funny
mygunx YOURFACEx (10:44:12 PM): :-)
mygunx YOURFACEx (10:44:30 PM): thanks
i think and hope things are getting better.. i miss her :-/
sean comes home tomorrow..
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[13 Jul 2003|06:55pm] |
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you people are fucking pathetic to mess my journal up. sad how some people have no lives whatsoever
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[13 Jul 2003|05:16pm] |
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it's times like these when i wish i had a fucking car. i need to get my fucking permit, bad
damnit.. i was all excited n shit about tonight. i need to get out.
3479218.
<3
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[13 Jul 2003|12:19am] |
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i'm excited..
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